Living Decisions

In life, choices always have to be made. We make so many crucial decisions that change the course of our lives. Where to study college, whether to join this organization or not, what career you want to have, or doing the right or wrong thing; these are just some of the choices we make. I myself had these mind-breaking times in my life.
In all the choices I've made, I've always thought of the "what if's" that went with it but regrets were never stronger that the commitments I have made. I actually realized why I never regretted that much about my decisions to the point of going back to another choice. I thought maybe it really didn't matter that much where you sided or what you chose; what mattered most was being united with your decision. It is like you and your decision are two separate things and then after choosing it, you merge into one and your movements and the consequences you take become the same.
I actually dreamt about this kind of thing. In my dream was a river. I was at the other side of the river already and in front was a forest that had so much chaos in it. Opposite that side was paradise. The beauty of the area was just so magnificent and it was so bright. After a few days of having this dream, I thought of what the dream was telling me. I actually thought maybe I should have gone back to the paradise side. But then, it came to me that I should not anymore. I had crossed already and that I had to stick to. I guess some decisions make us better people not just because of the decisions but of the process of sticking it out with our decision. The ugly forest was a challenge for me to form into something better than the paradise on the other side or even make it the best. Since I had crossed it already, there was no turning back. The best thing to do for me was live and love what I had. I had to improve what I thought was not the best yet.
Those are the insights my decisions have given to me; not by making it but living the decision and experiencing and learning from it. Everyday, I cherish the decisions I have made in the past whether it has given me blessings or problems because I learn from them whether positive or negative. The experience I go through everyday always overpowers the "what ifs" in my mind. I just live each day of my life trying to make the right decisions but making sure of committing with what I have decided on.