1941-2007

Last December 23, my uncle finally went to rest. After struggling with liver cancer for almost a year and a half, he finally had his last breath.
Last year, I remember my cousin bringing him to China for some herbal medicine to prolong his life since according to the doctor, no matter how much chemo my uncle takes, his life will not extend anymore. The herbal medicine let him live for another 6 months since the doctors only gave him 3 months to live but then he was still able to extend his life to almost a year after taking the herbal medicine...

I wonder how it feels to die. That uncle of mine was a big man, stands more than 6feet and weighs more than 200pounds... The last time I saw him was 3 months ago more or less, he was still very alive, not thin and still talks happily, though he gets tired easily.

I haven't visited him yet in the wake, maybe I will, but mostly I won't.

I pity him because he didn't know he had cancer. We hide it from him so that he would be able to enjoy his life to the fullest. We thought that if he knew he had cancer and was dying, he would be spending the rest of the time left mourning and depressed, so we didn't tell him anymore...

He was 66, too young to die. My dad's almost the same age as him, but my dad's still alive and kicking, not to mention that he can still drive and go to work, plus have a little fun with his friends at night before going home.

My uncle was not a heavy drinker to suffer from liver cancer. But instead, he got liver cancer from the medicines he takes after having a bypass surgery in the heart 20 years ago. He's taking almost 20 tablets daily to support his heart. Sad thing: the thing that's letting him live is also the thing that let him die...

christmas = money & work

Christmas could only mean one thing for me
MONEY and WORK
simple reason, it's only during christmas that I get to work so hard that I barely get to sleep. With the line of business that I'm having, one can easily imagine how toy business is running during holiday seasons.
hopefully holiday season is ending soon Ü

Deprivation issues?

My gf hates my ex-wife so much because she saw what my ex-wife did to me hahaha! My body's filled with remembrances from her, the tiny pinches became scarrs, and the cuts I got turned into keloids (she throws kitchen knives at me before when I go home past 8PM no matter what the reason is, may it be traffic, overtime etc.)

The worst part, I'm earning so much and yet she's only giving me P100 everyday for transport fare, breakfast, lunch and merienda...Sad thing I can't make kupit of my salary so that I could eat better...She doesn't even provide me with a car and so I have to take bus and then jeepney in going to work and vice versa because she fears I might use the car for porma on other girls, lame reason yet I was too stupid to just accept it.
I weigh 180lbs before she started depriving me, in the span of 2 years, I became 105lbs. Too underweight for a person like me who stands 5'7.

With P100/day, I can only afford eating instant noodles for lunch and pandesal for breakfast and merienda. Bus fare costs P18 from Ortigas to Lawton, then I would take a jeep from Lawton to Divisoria which costs P7.50. In a day, my transport fee alone already costs P51. Only P49 left for my entire day. With P49, I buy 5pcs pandesal for breakfast which costs P5, I bring my own coffee which I put in a stainless jug. P44 left. I buy Pancit Canton for lunch, 2 packs to fill my stomach, each pack costs P5, so 2 is P10. I have a little kitchen in the office so I just need to cook it there. P34 left. I buy something heavy for merienda, like pandesal with cheese since I'm not really sure if I can still eat when I get home (I'll tell you why later), I eat about 3 pcs of pandesal with cheese, 3pcs for P10... P24 left...That's my savings everyday, though I cannot really call it savings since I use it to buy my needs...I only get to save P120 in a week... good enough for grocery stuffs...and a good toothbrush would already costs my entire savings for the week...

I'm not dreaming of buying a cellphone anymore, I was using a Sendo back then, I don't know if people are familiar with that...It's like only I have that kind of phone...
It's still with me, though the charger's already broken, the unit is still good...

I leave work around 6PM in fear that traffic would take me hours and my wife would throw knives at me when I get home later than 8PM. Luckily, I usually arrive home no later than 7:30PM. However, sad thing is, my dinner would most of the time be my wife's nag & shout. I would be lucky if I get to have dinner twice a month...even if the viand would be corned beef and pork and beans, I really appreciate it, coz that's what my wife can afford to cook...or rather to microwave lolz Ü

I play with my child when I get home, even when I feel so weak due to hunger that I can feel myself shaking when I throw my child in the air...
After that, I take a shower and go to sleep at 9PM.

I wake up at 4:30AM, leaving home by 5AM. By 6AM I'm already working and waiting for other workers to arrive...everyday is just a plain routine for me...and it went on for half year or so...until I met someone who changed my life...

why nag?

I don't really understand why my ex-wife is still pesting me up to now when in fact she can choose not to even see nor talk to me forever...
Before I was typing this blog, I was talking with my youngest brother who have a very naughty yet creative mind. He told me that maybe my ex-wife is still in love with me hahaha! So anyway, we cross that possibility out. On second thought, even if she is still in love with me, I will NEVER get back with her again. Living with her for 4 years was a complete hell life. For the last 2 years of our marriage, I was suffering so much that deprivation was not even a term to call it. Though I must admit that our first 2 years of marriage was sweet and uncomparable...

I told my brother that maybe my ex-wife feels that I'm too kind for her to shout and nag at. I don't like the way she talks, even when she's not shouting...It makes me feel like she's doubting me on something I don't even know...

The girl I married and the ex-wife I know right now is not the same anymore.
The girl I married doesn't smoke, drinks occasionally, talks softly, doesn't curse, doesn't hurt and don't nag.
The ex-wife I know now smokes a lot, drinks a lot (would you imagine we had dinner at Gerry's Grill the other night, she ordered beer tower and finished it all alone?!and she's 6 months pregnant!), talks like shouting, cursing is like a habit, hurts me with pinches and punches, and nags all the time!

My son taught me a lesson

Ok, so last night, after work, I decided to take the kids out for dinner.
Then, something unexpected happened. My ex-wife followed us. Apparently, my ex-wife had a talk on the phone with my son and my son had told her where we're going... To cut things short, my ex-wife was with us last night...

We went to Mall Of Asia... Then, while walking, there was this lady (on her 40's I guess) who was walking briskly, then, she slipped and fell into the floor. So, at first I looked if the woman was okay, I was about 5 meters away from the woman. Then, after looking at her for about 5 seconds, I told myself that I should help her because she's still on the floor, perhaps looking for help. So, I pulled my son whom I was holding and we approached the lady. I kneeled down a bit and gave my hand to the lady so that she would stand up with the support of my hand. To my dismay, the woman shrugged off my hand pushing it away. At that time, I felt embarassed, I was just being courteous and yet she just rejected it (the heck!). But then, I just held my son's hand and we walked away without looking back...

While walking towards them, (my ex-wife together with my daughter and the nannies who were just staring at us) my son asked me what did I do. I told him that I was trying to help the woman but she doesn't want my help. Then, my son told me,"why are there so many foolish people papa? They are so proud of themselves that when they fell on the floor, they don't even want others to help them." My son has a point, maybe next time, I should just be an usisero like what most of the people do when something or someone is suffering from something, instead of helping them...

Then, my ex-wife, who is such a pessimist, laughed at what I did. She said something like I was making papogi yet it seems the girl doesn't like me. THE HELL! I did it without any intention like that! Besides, the woman looked much much older than me! I really hate my ex-wife, I have no regrets that we separated, honestly. She doubts everything about me...when in fact she was the one who cheated that's why we broke up

personal profile? hmm...

alot of people always ask me if what do I do for a living, because it seems that I'm living an extravagant life. IT SEEMS! hahaha! I just tell them I am self employed, coz that's the truth. I import toys from China then distribute it to Divisoria and everywhere else in the country. I have warehouses to store toys since I have 6 containers every night during Decembers and 2 containers on normal days. My income is not really steady since its a win or lose game, its a gamble...

Just like last year, I lost 70M due to mismanagement, oh I really hate it, to think that it was Christmas season and I was feeling that way. Good thing I was able to catch up right away because of Christmas shopping rush Ü

so, estimation of how much does a self employed person like me earn annually? Let's just say, I can buy 30 BMW 7Li series... just canvas how much an 7Li series costs and you'll know. Hint: 7 digit, approximately around the lucky number hahaha!

my work time isn't really steady since I don't have a permanent time for work... sometimes I don't have work for a week, but that rarely happens LOL, sometimes I work the entire week wherein I only go home to take a shower, so it really depends...

my kids are getting tampo these days coz I've really been so busy due to xmas season, I just told them to be more understanding and I'll try to bawi after New Year, maybe bring them somewhere or shop somewhere, MAYBE! hehehe...

It's nice to see how little kids grow, would you imagine this was my little boy before, he was 4 months old I think. And my ex-wife always tell me that our little boy looks like a dwarf haha! He used to be so ugly, nobody noticed him whenever we would take him out. Then, months passed by, his looks changed. We took him to have some photo shots, he looked better than before, he was 9 months old. It was hard to let him pose and smile because he was such a cry baby hahaha! It took us almost 2 hours for him to have a good shot...

Good thing his looks evolved. In fact, he looks like a binata now even if he's only 4 years old hehehe! The heck, he looks like me no doubt, and my wife tells me our son looks like a dwarf, so it's like she's also telling me I look like a dwarf hahaha!

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it's almost Christmas

I can feel the spirit of Christmas. But unlike before, Christmas season has changed alot from what I used to have when I was a child...
I remember when I was a child, my dad would bring us siblings to Cubao to watch Christmas lights, he would even carry me in his shoulder because I'm the youngest and I was so small then, around 5 years old hahaha! Oh how I miss the old days...

I'm thinking of bringing the kids somewhere this Christmas, or maybe just celebrating it plainly at home wouldn't be so bad, just a little boring hehe...

Chinatown Ongpin

I've been lsiving in Chinatown for almost 2 decades now. Not to mention that I have memorized every single store located along the vicinity, but morpeso of how things have evolved in it...
The one thing that has not changed since I came to live here was Masuki, sinpce the 1980s up to now, the ambience is still the same. Not to mention their waiters too! Their waiters have been working there for more than 2 decades now, that's what they told me...
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Hmm... Shopper's Mart...Chinatown's biggest grocery...Before, they used to rent the place. But now, they were able to buy the whole building where the groery is located...and a little tidbit, the family of the son of the owner died during the Tsunami in Thailand...

Bee Tin Grocery, I LOVE THIS STORE SO MUCH! Only this store in Chinatown offers great Champoys and peanuts! I admire the owner, how he loves her wife so much (their both in thier 70s now I guess) and how he was able to manage their used to be little grocery store into a big one. Plus, there were able to buy the whole building of where their grocery is located...and buy houses and lots in Greenhills...Ü

Anson's appliance shop isn't very noticeable in Ongpin. But, if I'm not mistaken, the owner is indeed a no read no write person who strived his best to success. He must be very rich to be able to build branches in Makati and Ortigas (across Podium)...not bad...

These are just some of the things that I love in Ongpin. But, if there are likes, there are also dislikes...I hate copycat stores who steal other's name just to be popular...
Eng Bee Tin, I hate how they tried to copy Bee Tin Grocery's name just to be popular right away. A lot of people mistake them to be of the same owner.
Eng Bee Tin must be the worst shop in Ongpin based on my experience, they act so corteous in giving Tikoys during chinese new year, and luckily I was one of them who got it for free. So my friends who were also able to get and I were so thankful to them. Later, when I got home, my mom told me that the Tikoy is already spoiled! So I tried texting my friend if hers was also spoiled, she said her dad told her that too! And our other friends also encountered the same! So, it is not by accident that the Tikoy got spoiled coz all of our Tikoys were already spoiled even before it was cooked! And, a little tidbit too, their hopia can last for up to a month, what the fuck! They must be adding formalin to preserve it hahaha! An original hopia would spoil in less than 5 days.
I know that this revelation would shock a lot of Filipinos but, no Chinese are buying hopias and tikoys in Eng Bee Tin because they doubt on the ingredients plus the price! Their hopias and tikoys are much more expensive compared to others. For example, a normal hopia costs P20, they sell it for P35. A small tikoy costs P25, they sell it for P35. see the difference?
Only Filipinos buy there because that's the only store they know because only Eng Bee Tin advertises on television... poor them =(

so sick

I've been so tired lately. Working 14 hours everyday just doesn't feel right. But what can I do, I only have December to rely on, my business is at boom only during Christmas, so whether I'm suffering or not, I need to do it painstakingly...I just feel oh so sick, having a fever and a bad diarrhea and still going to work...aw...

LBM because of Golden Fortune

I woke up around 3AM today due to tummy ache. Right before I knew it, I was having diarrhea. At first I thought I just over ate since we had late dinner at Golden Fortune last night but, it just doesn't feel that right. I tried to puke but nothing came out, so I tried to sit on the toilet bowl for a while to see if I can poo poo, and there it goes, I was peeing shit! I feel sick! I was so sleepy but I can't sleep because of tummy ache...Finally around 5AM I was able to sleep...
I woke up around 8AM this morning. I took a shower in an instant thinking that I was back to normal and that I would be going to work by 9. But, after having breakfast, I felt my stomach crumbling again, then it hurt so much that I took a poo poo again, again, another pee of shit. So I decided to just stay at home the whole day to avoid having 'accidents'.

I felt asleep around 10AM...I don't know why despite the fact that I had just woke up and even took a shower, I still feel sleepy... Then, I woke up around 1PM to have lunch...I was having fever, my eyes were all red, I looked like a monster hahaha! So, I took 1 tab of Biogesic and went back to sleep... good thing when I woke up around 5PM, my fever was gone but I was all sweat!

I thought I was going to have dengue, good thing my fever went away quickly... I just hate the fact that I still have LBM ugh... I love Golden Fortune, but I wouldn't suffer from LBM if it's not because of them, partly it is my fault too because it was me who went there to eat, but it is more of their fault because they should serve good food...right?
Plus, Golden Fortune doesn't have a direct water pump from NAWASA or anywhere, they just get it through a tank or something from somewhere else, so we can't really rely on their water's cleanliness. And their service is quite bad, very slow and they forget it most of the time, you will need to follow your order up several times... I've been there more than 10x because my shop closes at 9PM and that's the closest place to me, plus they give 50% discounts during 9PM onwards daily...and a buy 3 take 1 promo on Tsing Tao beer...their food is good especially the hotpot, but just like what happened to me, I doubt if I'm still going back again...

a few days from now I will try to post something different from the recent posts. I will try to post something that's worth reading for, and not something that I just want to blabber...

I'm just too busy right now, I work 14 hours a day... having to wake up at 6AM and be at work by 7AM, then going home by 9PM, it really hurts my back badly...


On the other hand, I really need someone (an architect or engineer) to check on my floor in the living room. I was sitting by the sofa awhile ago, then I thought that there's an earthquake coz the sofa's shaking... then it stopped, then shaked, stopped, shaked, until I realized that when my dog passes through, the floor shakes...I tried knocking on the floor, shit it's very hallow! Like there's only the tiles left and no cement! And the space of hallowed is quite big, about 4 giant steps of 2 meters...I'm going to have it checked when I have the time, maybe next month... besides, before I have i checked, I might go to our neighbor downstairs first and see if they installed something in their ceiling to cause our floor to be hallowed...we're in the 4th floor, so I guess that makes me worry more...

Reminiscin' my younger days

I miss my younger days when my brother and I used to go fishing at Pasig River (now you can imagine how old am I, Pasig River wasn't even that dirty before!), even though there aren't any fish! hahaha!

I miss the days when my brother and I will wait for our grandmother to sleep and we'll sneak out together with our neighbor. Then our neighbor will drove his dad's car, and we'll go roadtripping all the way from Antipolo to Alabang, I can still remember Zapote Road still looks like a forest before... I was in elementary then, around 12 to 13 years old, that was in the 70's...

I kept on laughing whenever I would remember our younger days especially those that seem to be 'unique' ones. Poor kids for this generation for they never experienced to climb on acacia trees, fishing in Pasig River, watching movies at Avenida, and oh how I love to shop with my dad at Avenida when I was young... so sad that those stuffs are only remembered through memories

Manila Peninsula

Ok, ok, w/ regards to what happened yesterday at Manila Penn, I wasn't that terrified nor surprised since those stuffs aren't really 'special' from any other protests. Although I was anti-GMA, I am somehow sure that GMA will abUSE her powers just to get rid of the protest. And although I am anti-GMA, I am so sure that the protest will end right away...


I still love my dentist... I am lying if I will say that she doesn't make me smile...what a life, all we can have is to remain as friends, according to her...

dresses from Leonard Co

Sometimes, when I get bored at work, I try to draw sketches of dresses for my daughter. Then, last weekend, I tried to give my sketches to my tailor. Good thing he was able to understand my drawings! Then, yesterday, I was able to get all the dresses...Thanks to Leonard Co for the quick and nice service, got 10pcs of these pretty little dresses for only 5K, not bad!

Here are just some of the dresses LOL, tired of uploading all of it hahaha!

update

it's been quite awhile since I started blogging, too bad I cannot update this everyday

Does 1st love really never dies?

There are times that I wonder if first love really never dies. Of course, when you say first love, it's true love and not puppy love, or else, it dies hahah!
I've been in love, a time or two, and still got myself heartbroken. Tonight, as I write this blog about my past experiences with my lovelife and how I cope w/ it after getting hurt, I would like to share some of my thoughts and point of views when it comes to love.

I can consider myself to be a late bloomer since I fell in love for the first time at the age of 28. Yes, believe me or not, I never courted nor had any intimate relationships (not even flings, count me out!) with anyone not until I turned 28.

It's been a decade since that day, but it was still very clear on my memory, of how we met each other and how our conversation went. It's like Love at first sight, and the following days were magic, I just fell inlove more with her each day. I tried analyzing myself first of what was happening to me since I've never felt that way, not until I told it to my brother and he told me that I was obviously in love.

I'm the 'torpe' kind of guy, that I must admit. I was torpe in a way that I would find ways to make her happy but I never really had the guts to court her officially. Then, one day, she just told me that she loves me... It was a bliss, WE WERE IN LOVE.

Those were the happiest days of my life, I hope that goes the same way for her too. She was the most beautiful woman I've ever met, aside from the sweet and caring personality, she was more than what I have ever wanted.

Our relationship lasted for more than 2 years, then I asked her to marry me. It was not my plan to marry so soon but I can't help myself but to want to be with her every single moment of my life. Luckily, she agreed. And on that cloudy day of March 25, 2000, we finally got married.

Our relationship was not a touching nor a Cinderella type of relationship. We're like the normal couples who enjoys each other's company. We were just starting a life back then, both in our early 30's, all that we could do was to save up asmuch as possible so that we could buy something at the end of the year.

Our lives went better as the years progresses, from renting an apartment, we ere able to buy our own 3000 square meter lot w/ a fully furnished home.

It was a dream come true, we had a swimming pool, a japanese garden, a gym filled with body building equipments, sauna room, library, mini-theatre, and a music room. Aside from that, we had 7 bedrooms plus a master's bedroom. WE WERE DREAMING, that's what we thought, BUT WE'RE NOT!

Fortune came to us one by one, and we became busy with our lives. We still aren't blessed with a child osn our 3rd wedding anniversary and so we decided to adopt to be called a family.

Fortune was flowing towards our way, we were earning a thousand times more than what we had expected. Of course, we had never been busier in our lives. A year later, we decided to adopt another baby again, to make our family more complete.

Our lives was going pretty well, that was what I thought. Few months after we had our 2nd adopted baby, I caught my wife cheating on me. Worst, I caught them in our house, on our bed! I was stunned and shocked that I freezed the moment I saw them, I don't know what to say, nor what to feel. The only thing that I know is that my pride was nowhere to be seen.

To cut things short, my wife ran away with the guy, and she was carrying his child in her womb. Those were the darkest days of my life! I need to be strong, thank GOD we adopted a 2nd child whom I get my strength with. Little babies are really angels sent from above, if we didn't adopted, perhaps I wouldn't be alive today. Everyday, I would bring the kids with me to work because no one will take care of them at home. Our eldest has a nanny but the 2nd doesn't have, we were still searching for a nanny then.

Now, it's been more than 3 years since my wife had left me. I know she's happy now with her new found man and their 2 kids. As for me, I am now happy too with our 2 adopted kids, I have certainly moved on with my life.

The memories we had, the things that we shared, everything about her will always stay the same. She will always be my first love, and she will always be a magic to me....

Tired and wasted, but atleast HAPPY AND CONTENTED

I'm just too tired to type on what's been happening to me lately. All that I can say is that I love my life right now and I'm living it to the fullest!
A lot of things had just happened and I know there will still be a lot of it to happen in the future, but who cares, as long as GOD stands beside me, I am not afraid to face it...
GOD has been answering all of my prayers now, I LOVE HIM! THANKS GOD!

It's been a month

It's been a month since Kris passed away, I miss her more each day.
I know you're just there, guiding us all the way.
I'll never forget the moments we shared,
And how you showed your love and care.
I love you Kris, I hope you can see
I regret to tell you how much you mean to me
Now that you're gone,
We could only say how much you mean to us
...through prayers...

Pretty Woman

I know this movie had been shown for several years already. but, it's funny how I just got to watch it today. At first I thought the movie was boring and everything, but I was wrong! This movie touched me and made me want to fall in love hahaha! So romantic, I kept on thinking about it, good thing I watched it before going to sleep, made my sleep to be a very nice one...

It's been 3 weeks...

It's been 3 weeks since Kris passed away, and I miss her with each passing day. Last night, I had a dinner meeting with some friends, and we talked about her in the middle of nowhere; we just miss her thoroughly, telling how much we miss her and wanted her to be there last night.
True enough, it was never happier without Kris' presence. Last night was a test to that. There were no humorous jokes last night, no one was there to crack a joke or made us laugh so hard, coz we all know that only Kris can do that. However, we left a chair vacant, just in case Kris would like to join us; she will always be welcome to join us, forever.
I miss you Kris, we all do. GOD took you away too quick, that's the truth.

I miss you...

YES, the truth that you're gone have sinked in. AND YES, I CRIED TOO MUCH KNOWING THE FACT THAT YOU'RE GONE AND WE'LL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN.
But NO, the truth that you're gone have sinked in only for quite awhile because no words can tell how much pain I feel with just the thought of knowing that you're already gone

Just as what others say, it's like I'm living in denial each day. I keep on denying to myself that you're already gone because that's my only relief; I'm still hurting. I guess no one can blame me if I'm feeling this way, we've been the closest for the past years, and we've treated each other more than best friends.

I don't want to be so emotional that's why I keep on pushing the reality away, I hate to cry because it's hard for me to let go of you, in fact I don't want to let go of you; I will, but not now, it's just too soon.

Up to now I'm still hoping for your texts and calls. Everyday, I keep on checking my phone from time to time, hoping and wishing that I'll get a message or call from you. But no, there have been nothing since you've been gone, and this only proves that this is the reality...

I hope this is just a bad dream...

Hawak Kamay...

HAWAK KAMAY by Yeng Constantino
This song never meant a lot to me, not until you're gone.
Before, whenever I hear this song, it's whether I stick to the radio station because I can't change it or else I really change the radio station because this song is just too emo for me. I'm not attracted to these types of songs, in short.

But now, whenever I would hear this song, our memories pile up my mind and I can't help but cry. I remember during your last day of burial, this was the song that was played by the band, I just can't help but to excuse myself to the toilet and cry in there.

I WASN'T THERE WHEN YOU NEED ME THE MOST. AS A RESULT, IT COST YOUR LIFE. I DIDN'T MEAN IT, I'M SO SORRY... I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS COMING TOO SOON. IF ONLY I KNOW, I WOULD RUSH MYSELF JUST TO SAVE YOU EVEN IF IT HAPPENED AT DAWN AND WE LIVE SO FAR AWAY.

I miss you terribly, though I know you're happy watching over us already. I just miss you that's why I cry to sleep every night. My day was never complete since you've been gone, I need to take valium every night and cry myself to sleep. I'm not having a good rest since you've been gone, my mind is full of questions and doubts and I don't have anyone to turn to, because I only turn to you. BUT YOU'RE GONE.

HOW DID YOU KNOW

HOW DID YOU KNOW ...
I've forgotten who is the original singer of this song, but I know Gary V. and Aiza Seguerra has revived version of this.
This song used to be a favorite song of mine, but as time passes, we get to know new songs that became our current favorites, and then it hit me.

This song will forever linger in my heart. This song lets me realize that I'm in the reality, and that the reality that you're gone has sinked in on me, for awhile only though.
I cried too much that all the people looked at me on the day of your burial. I remember this was the song being played when your casket was being carried out of the paz, I'll never forget those moments, I'm not an emotional person, and I keep my emotions to myself as far as I can, though I admit, I'm very sensitive, I get hurt easily and I have a weak personality. But it doesn't mean that I'm going to cry easily, I'm not a cry baby, I don't cry over small things, I fight and prove that I can prove something instead of crying. But this was a different situation.

The reason why I cried out of nowhere was because of this song. This song let me into the reality, and it hit me, the reality that you're gone had sinked in, and tears filled my eyes, and I couldn't help but to cry. But it stopped after I fooled myself that it's just a bad dream.

I don't know how to accept the fact that you're gone, I only know how to avoid thinking that you're gone, and that's denying the reality.

Egay

We're having a 6-day break for schools since super typhoon Egay is passing through.
Good thing as I can have a pretty good rest after weeks of stressing myself and working so hard and feeling so tired at the end of the day but yet find it very hard to sleep at night.

I don't know what's the matter with me, I feel weird these past few days. I hope these are not signs that I'm getting old hehehe...

BL-5C BATTERIES

I own a Nokia 1100, and I tried to check it's battery and just as unexpected, saw that the battery is BL-5C. I saw in the news that these types of batteries can explode when charging, and so Nokia is giving a free replacement for these batteries. I tried my luck by logging in to www.nokia.com, and it really works, I guess Nokia is really serious about this, well, I do hope so... it's been almost 2 weeks since I've sent my contact information to Nokia and they said they're going to send a new battery for replacement of my BL-5C battery but still up to now I still haven't received anything...
I THINK THEY'RE JUST WARNING PEOPLE FROM USING THESE TYPES OF BATTERIES, FREE REPLACEMENT OF BATTERIES IS JUST A FRAUD!

A year ago...

A year ago today, TIFFY left us unexpectedly just like what my bestie did...
2 of the most important people in my life was taken by GOD within a year.
Tiffy left us with pain in our hearts, she was such a fighter, everybody hoped for her quick recovery, and she did. However, only Lord can decide for a person's stay here on Earth. Perhaps my little TIFFY was too precious to stay here on Earth...
Bestie, wherever you are right now, I know you're happy and playing with my Tiffy. Please take good care of my little bunsoy okay? And Tiffy, Bestie should have been your Godmother... =)

I guess it will take time for me to heal all these wounds, no regrets though, I know that you two are both in God's hands already =)

P.S. Tiffy, I have already moved on, I'm not in grief anymore. I don't cry everytime I remember you. You are an inspiration for me and everybody else who cared about you that sometime in our lives, an Angel touched us and made us feel that life is beautiful and worth living for.

GOOD INCOME

It's sad how La Salle lose over Ateneo last Thursday. Araneta was so filled and people was so tensed; the game was such a good one. Before they had overtime, La Salle was leading, but after the overtime, I don't know what the heck happened and Ateneo gained 3 points over La Salle, so sad...

More update about UAAP:
Tickets that are priced at P50 (upper box A) in the ticket was sold by people selling outside Araneta for P300-P700 bucks. That's about 500%-1300% increase in terms of profit, wow! And take note, people are still willing to buy them considering it's overpriced and they know that the original price just to be able to watch the game live.

To my beloved friend that will forever linger in my heart

Today, my best friend passed away... I just dunno what to say, I was in denial, I find it hard to believe that she's gone... In a glimpse, she's taken by the LORD. How can she not say goodbye to those who love her? She left us right away, very unexpected. Sudden death which caused all of who love her to be in denial that she's already gone...

A friend just informed me about it. At first I thought it was a rumor, but how could a good person be rumored just like that? And so I called our friends to confirm it, and yes, it was true, she was gone... Still, I was in denial, I opened the computer and searched the net hoping that there would be no news about her. To my dismay, her name appeared a lot of times in google confirming she has passed away. Still in denial, I bought 3 newspapers, and I saw her name on all of those. But I was still in denial...

Such a wonderful and good friend, that's all that I can say. She's different from the rest, never ceases to make me laugh. She's smart and reliable, too bad other people who don't know her won't have the chance to know her anymore.

I can't go to your wake, just the thought that I will never see you again makes me feel sad. How can God take away such a good person at such a young age?

I know you yourself weren't expecting this to happen to you right away. You still have a lot of dreams, and I know we both have the same dream for next year. Sad to say, you will be accomplishing your dreams in Heaven.

If I had known that this would be happening to you, perhaps I will try my very best to save you from death. But as they say, only GOD can take and retain our lives.

It was too late for me to say just how important you are to me. Our jeepney rides to Rizal are never as fun without you there. We all love you, even though you never heard that, it was given.

Losing a friend as wonderful as you is so depressing. People around you are in grief right now. You're young, full of dreams, who would have thought you'd be gone right away...

All that we can do now is to move on and accept the fact that you're gone. We know you're in a better place now. There will never be another person that's as wonderful as you.

As you lie quietly in your casket, all we could do is hope and pray that GOD will always take good care of you, and that you'll be safe and happy wherever you are now.

Til we meet again someday, in a better place, at the right time...I LOVE YOU, you are one of the most wonderful person I have met... You're not just beautiful physically, but you are more beautiful on the inside.

Expecting Father

Just when I thought my day was about to end as a normal one, I received a text message saying 'I'm pregnant!', I was overwhelmed and so happy, words couldn't express just how happy I am... I guess it's true that when a window closes, the door opens. I can't wait for the baby to arrive! I've been waiting for this for the longest time, my baby boy at last!
The baby is due by the end of March next year, I'm so excited, I'm starting to think for his name already =)

Single?Why?

A lot of people have been asking me about why I am still single up to this age... I just smile back at them, making them think that I am gay or whatever

Honestly speaking, I am very choosy when it comes to people, even make friends... I don't have a lot of friends, so you're lucky if you are my friend. Mind you, if you think you are my friend, as me first if I consider you as my friend, coz a lot of people usually consider me as their friend, but I don't consider them as one, coz they are users, telling people that you are their friend just because you are powerful or influential...

What are some of my qualifications in looking for a lifetime partner?
Here are some:
1. Atleast college graduate
2. Stable job
3. Good manners
4. TAKES ME FOR WHO I AM is a must. I've been cheated quite a lot of times because of this
5. Physically, as long as she's not ugly, it's fine. Don't really care for the looks
6. VERY HARDWORKING AND NEVER GIVES UP, major turn off for me are people who easily gives up. I don't like uncompetitive people, they are not fit enough to exist in this world!
7. HARD WORKING HARD WORKING HARD WORKING!
8. MAABILIDAD! BEST TURN ON FOR ME, I dunno why... I just love people that are 'MAABILIDAD'

I can't think of any anymore...that's all for now...

the simpsons

I went to watch THE SIMPSONS at MOA today, I LOVE IT! They're my favorite! Oh yeah!
I'm so stressed and tired...
minamalas ako nitong mga nakalipas na araw. Nasira kahapon yung isang laptop ko, the one I use for school. Today, my I-phone got stolen... I feel like crying...
Not in the mood... Need a good sleep

Lose or win?

It's amazing how UE won over La Salle last Sunday. From the start, the game have been so intensified. Nonetheless, Cuneta Astrodome never looked that crowded before.
What's amazing is the performance of UE, they ended the game with the score 96-76, a total of 20 points in difference.
The last time UE won over La Salle was on July 17, 2005 with a score of 57-56. The score difference wasn't far, it was only by a point. But now, look what UE had made, such a very big difference.
I don't want to think that La Salle have given up their talents in basketball. As we all know, they are one of the strongest team in UAAP, maybe UE was just too strong that LaSallites didn't expect them to be that strong.

Whether win or lose, it's just a game...

SONA Morning...

Today is the president's SONA, I'm still sleepy, what the heck am I doing, waking up at 7 in the morning just to update my blog... and watch simpsons hahaha! Abnormality strikes again =)

Excited to graduate

I'm graduating, finally! After almost 7 years of struggling over my 5-year course haha! My time of graduation? Earliest would be by October next year, that would be 14 months from now... Can't wait for that day to arrive....
I should have been graduating this year, if I have not shifted from one course to another, course-hopping as they term it. I was indecisive with what I really want to take... But the bottomline is, I just want to graduate with whatever the course may be... =)

Some Realizations...

Today, I came to a point of thinking about what I really like. Of course, aside from what I'm currently doing, I am still thinking of other things that I wanna do in the future... Here are some things that I've thought of:
1. Settling down after finishing my studies, but not right away. My qualifications? Too many to mention, but atleast she should have the same interests as me...
2. Tour around the world next year (perhaps next year around the month of October, the time of my earliest graduation), that would be my present for myself for a job well done hahaha!
3. Getting a job is far from my mind since I already have a steady income...
4. Continue studying, wow, I can't believe I'm really thinking about it...

personal vs magazine

Today, I went to school to meet with a friend... I saw Simon Atkins, he seated beside me while having breakfast. Knowing that there was game yesterday (DLSU vs FEU), I dared myself to ask him who won the game. He pointed down, meaning DLSU won, I asked by how many points, and he raised his 3 fingers.
Yesterday, I was reading this CHALK magazine that I borrowed from a friend, the July issue was an UAAP special, so one would see the UAAP players inside the cover. On the cover was Simon Atkins and an Atenean rookie, pardon me for forgetting his name.
Simon Atkins was very handsome in that magazine, I must say. But today, as I saw him this morning, all that I can say is the he is photogenic hahaha! I swear...

7-7-7 LUCKY?

How true is it that 777 is really lucky? I'm turning 40 today, so does that mean that I will be lucky for the entire year as long as I'm 40? Guess not...
Luck is base on a person's perception, it depends on whether he/she is going to believe on such thing or not...
SO, what makes today memorable? I guess it's the reality that a date like this only happens every 100 years...

Something changed in my life

Well, I made a new character in my online game since my current character was such a mess, at level 162, it couldn't kill a monster as fast as what a level 100 can do. I tried asking my friends about my problem, and they said that I placed my status points on the wrong places...SHIT!

I also went to check my online game's website forum, and there, I saw alot of postings about scammers, hackers, booters, etc... In short, mga reklamo! Well, I posted some comments too saying that scammers won't be banned because the online game management won't lose any penny on them, but they ban the booters because they will lose money on them. The only thing we can do is to warn other players about scammers, that's it. The rest, the management won't care a dime at all to scammers! In fact, scammers help the management earn more money....Try to analyze... I don't want to explain further anymore...

It's funny how girls tend to be so sensitive, Kara knows that I was playing even without telling her. Or maybe she herself knows that I'm addicted to the game... I dunno... She has changed, not as sweet as before, not the same her that she used to be, I hate it...

DVD DVD...

Well, I bought 3 DVDs today... I'm gonna watch them tomorrow since I'm so addicted to my online game that I can't stop playing from the moment I wake up til I close my eyes at dawn hahahahaha!
I heard people in the mall talking about the death of Manny Pacquiao. A guard even said that he saw it in Unang Hirit about Manny Pacquiao's death, it was really funny but I just keep my mouth shut, I really wanna ask him, "uhh, excuse me, may Unang Hirit ba ngayon? Linggo ngayon diba?" (Excuse me, is there Unang Hirit today? It's Sunday right?). If I remember it right, Unang Hirit is from Mondays to Saturdays only, Sundays are masses. THAT GUARD WAS A LIAR HAHAHAHA!

Manny Pacquiao died already

Ok, ok, so today, nothing usual happened except when I was about to end my day. I was playing RPG and was hunting for sapphire when I saw someone typed in the message box that Manny Pacquiao died already. I knew it rightaway that it was a joke. Some bastards killed Manny Pacquiao on text messages, saying he was ambushed and got so many gun shots. LOL, that was kinda funny, knowing that the boxer is receiving death threats.

On the contrary, Manny Pacquiao said that Darlene Antonio-Custodio, his rival in running as governor, was behind those threats. He was so stupid to accuse someone without any proofs. I mean, how could he possibly accuse someone without holding any proofs?! And when asked why he think that it was Custodio behind those threats, his answer was this, "Nung hindi pa ako pumapasok sa pulitika, wala naman akong natatanggap na threat. Ngayon lang pumasok ako sa pulitika tsaka ako nakakatanggap." (When I haven't entered politics, I didn't received any threats. It's just now that I have been receiving threats after entering politics). Well, that's a stupid answer. WHY? Simple, why would people give a damn threat to a famous boxer? Besides, everyone knows that politics is a dirty thing, you can't avoid death threats. By the way, I've been hearing lots of people even candidates being killed... LOTS OF THEM, I pity them, madugo talaga pag eleksiyon.

To top this journal, I would like to comment about the text messages thing. You people got nothing to do, wag nyo nang patulan si Manny Pacquiao. We all know he's rich, yes, but he has no brains. Later on, maybe after 20 years, all his wealth will go to nothing, believe me. He's investing his money on derby, and cars. WOW, what a very good investment...

Boredom in the hospital.....

Geezus, I thought my account had been hacked already, it's been quite awhile since the last time I've updated my blog because of the chinese words appearing whenever I would try to log-in on my account, and I have to keep on guessing on what those chinese words are trying to say... Lolz, good thing I have chinese friends to help me, and I'M BACK ONCE AGAIN!!!


Today, as I went online and went to Yahoo to check my mail, I saw this Yahoo news regarding a costumer who filed a $67M suitcase against a laundry shop just because of a pair of pants! HAHAHAHA! It was a bit weird, however, it turns out that the costumer was actually a lawyer himself. But still, hello!?!?! That was a stupid lawyer, if I were him, I'd rather use the $67M to charity or help the needy people than to use it for a senseless case!

Tomorrow, I will be having my surgery for my sinus. Wish me luck, hehehe!

Albatrosses live longer more than most other birds in the wild

The wandering albatross, which has the greatest wingspan of any bird, is believed to live more than 80 years. The royal albatross has a lifespan of more than 60 years. In captivity, the sulfur-crested cockatoo, a popular pet, has been known to live more than 75 years.

The Arctic tern flies farther than any other bird

Every year, the Arctic tern makes a round-trip of 25,000 miles between the Arctic and Antarctic. It nests in Arctic regions, and when its young are grown, the whole family flies off to Antarctica.

one more...

I've never seen you
Or touched your skin
I've never felt your lips
Or held you tight
But I know I love you
Not because of the way you look
Or because of that sexy voice
Not because of the things you say
But because of whom you are
When we meet I will kiss you
And hold you all night
I love everything about you
Because it's you

awww.....

I've never had the chance
To kiss your beautiful lips
To hold you tight all day
To run my fingers through your hair
Or talk to you till the sun comes up
My mind says this won't be so
But my heart knows different
Someday I will do these wonderful things
And never let you go
No matter how long it takes
No matter how many tears it makes
I will see you, kiss you
And hold you until the end of time

The smartest birds are members of the crow family

Of about the 10,000 species of birds in the world, the most intelligent are crows and their cousins: ravens, jackdaws, jays, and magpies. They can be taught, very quickly, to speak.

Sikreto sa kapangyarihan at tagumpay

Marami nang naisulat tungkol sa mga mahahalagang katangian na kailangang taglayin ng isang tao upang makamit ang hinahangad na tagumpay. Para sa isang matagumpay na mangangalakal, maaaring sabihin nitong sipag at tiyaga ang naging sikreto sa tinatamasang karangyaan. Maaari rin niyang sabihin ang pagiging maabilidad ang kanyang naging sandigan sa mga hamon ng buhay. Kung sa perspektibo naman ng isang Machiavellian, katanggap-tanggap na manggulang ng kapwa upang makamit ang tagumpay na ninanais sa anyo ng kapangyarihan. Eh paano naman kung nakasalalay sa isa o ilang tao ang susi sa inaasam mong kapangyarihan o tagumpay? Ang sagot diyan: Siguraduhin mong "gusto" o kasundo ka ng taong tulay sa iyong mga mithiin. Bakit mas pinipili ng mga partidong pulitikal ang mga artista, boksingero, basketball coach kaysa sa mga kandidatong mas kwalipikado sa posisyong tinatakbuhan? Napaka-simple diba? Dahil mas "gusto" sila ng botante. Huwag na tayong lumayo, sa kahit anong organisasyong kung saan may direktang pakikilahok ang namumuno nito sa pagpili ng mga magiging opisyal ng organisasyon, hindi pipili ang pinuno ng mga taong makakatrabahong hindi niya gusto, kahit sabihin pa natin na ang taong hindi niya pinili ay mas kwalipikado sa taong pinili at kasundo niya. Ano naman ngayon? IMBES NA ANG PINAKA-KWALIPIKADONG TAO ANG NAPIPILI, MAS NAPIPILI ANG MGA TAONG MAS GUSTO AT NAKAKASUNDO NATIN. Mapalad ka kung ang taong iyon ay bukod sa pagiging kagusto-gusto, taglay niya ang mga kwalipikasyon na kinakailangan para sa kaakibat na tungkulin.

*Pagkatapos ng Edsa*

Lumipas na ang ika-6 na anibersaryo ng Edsa Dos na wala man lang akong nabasa o nabalitaang pagdiriwang na kadalasang nagaganap upang gunitain ito. Nakakamangha ang panahon. Kung kahapon gusto mo, kinabukasan isusuka mo na. Marahil wala na ngang makitang dahilan ang mga Pilipino upang ipagdiwang pa ito.

"Ikaw" ang problema!

Dadaan ang mga pulitiko. Ngingiti sa iyo. Kakamayan ka. Ano ang gagawin mo?

1, 2, 3, *poof* and they became crocodiles! Time's up! Ang galing-galing 'no? Parang naglalaro lang.

Panahon na naman ng pagpili at pagdedesisyon. Kabila't kanan ang mga pakitang-tao at paghahalina ng mga kandidato sa samabayanang huhusga sa kanilang kapalaran. Hindi niyo ba napapansin, tuwing halalan lang ang mga 'yan mababait?! Kitang-kita naman ang laking pagbabago sa paligid tuwing papalapit na ang eleksyon. Nakakalungkot pero masaya na ako sa pinunong hindi pabagu-bago ang pagganap sa kanyang tungkulin. Hindi siya mabuti tuwing eleksyon lang. Hindi siya aktibo tuwing eleksyon lang. Hindi siya mapagbigay tuwing eleksyon lang. At lalung-lalo na, hindi siya tao tuwing eleksyon lang. Hayaan na lang niya humusga ang mga tao kung nararapat ba talaga siyang ihalal muli o hindi.

Hindi masama ang pagpapakitang-gilas. Pero kung kaya niyo naman magpakitang-gilas tuwing eleksyon, bakit hindi niyo na lang ginawa 'yan habang hindi pa ganun kataas ang pamumulitika sa bansa hindi tulad ngayong papalapit na ang eleksyon? Mas lalo tuloy nagmumukhang kawawa ang sistema dahil pana-panahon lang ang pagbibigay niyo ng magandang serbisyo sa mga tao. Tapos aasa pa kayo na ibibigay ng tao ang tiwala sa inyo? Hindi niyo ba naiisip na kaya siguro kayo nananalo sa mga posisyong tinatakbuhan niyo dahil wala nang ibang pagpipilian maliban sa inyo? Ngayong papalapit na halalan, huwag niyo muna hanapin ang problema sa paligid niyo. Nasubukan niyo na ba tumingin sa salamin? Baka kasi nandoon lang ang problemang hinahanap niyo. Tingnan niyo. Ngingiti pa 'yan.

Tonight I Can Write by Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through the nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night, whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

Musee des Beaux Arts by W.H. Auden

About suffering they were never wrong,
The Old Masters: how well they understood
Its human position: how it takes place
While someone else is eating or opening a window or just walking dully along;
How, when the aged are reverently, passionately waiting
For the miraculous birth, there always must be
Children who did not specially want it to happen, skating
On a pond at the edge of the wood:
They never forgot
That even the dreadful martyrdom must run its course
Anyhow in the corner, some untidy spot
Where the dogs go on with their doggy life and the torturer's horse
Scratches its innocent behind on a tree.

In Brueghel's Icarus, for instance: how everything turns away
Quite leisurely from the disaster; the ploughman may
Have heard the splash, the forsaken cry,
But for him it was not an important failure; the sun shone
As it had to on the white legs disappearing into the green
Water, and the expensive delicate ship that must have seen
Something amazing, a boy falling out of the sky,
Had somewhere to get to and sailed calmly on.

From the Diary of an Almost Four-Year-Old by Hanan Mikha'il Ashrawi

Tomorrow, the bandages
will come off, I wonder
will I see half and orange,
half an apple, half my
mother's face
with my one remaining eye?

I did not see the bullet
but felt its pain
exploding in my head.
His image did not
vanish, the soldier
with a big gun, unsteady
hands, and a look in
his eyes
I could not understand.

If I can see him so clearly
with my eyes closed,
It could be that inside our heads
we each have one spare set
of eyes
to make up for the ones we lose.

Next month, on my birthday,
I'll have a brand new glass eye,
maybe things will look round
and fat in the middle -
I've gazed through all my marbles,
they made the world look strange.

I hear a nine-month-old
has also lost an eye,
I wonder if my soldier
shot her too - a soldier
looking for little girls who
look him in the eye -
I'm old enough, almost four,
I've seen enough of life,
but she's just a baby
who didn't know any better.

The Diameter of the Bomb by Yehuda Amichai

The diameter of the bomb was thirty centimeters
and the diameter of its effective range about seven meters,
with four dead and eleven wounded.
And around these, in a larger circle
of pain and time, two hospitals are scattered
and one graveyard. But the young woman
who was buried in the city she came from,
at a distance of more than a hundred kilometers,
enlarges the circle considerably,
and the solitary man mourning her death
at the distant shores of a country far across the sea
includes the entire world in the circle.
And I won't even mention the crying of orphans
that reaches up to the throne of God and
beyond, making
a circle with no end and no God.

Eating Poetry by Rumi

My poems resemble the bread of Egypt - one night
Passes over it, and you can't eat it any more.

So gobble them down now, while they're still fresh,
Before the dust of the world settles on them.

Where a poem belongs is here, in the warmth of the chest:
Out in the world it dies of cold.

You've seen fish - put him on dry land,
He quives for a few minutes and then is still.

And even if you eat my poems while they're still fresh,
You still have to bring forward many images yourself.

Actually, friend, what you're eating is your own imagination.
These poems are not just some old sayings and saws.

Walking Around by Pablo Neruda

It happens that I am tired of being a man.
It happens that I go into the tailor's shops and the movies
all shrivelled up, impenetrable, like a felt swan
navigating on a water of origin and ash.

The smell of barber shops makes me sob out loud.
I want nothing but the repose either of stone or of wool.
I want to see no more establishments, no more gardens,
nor merchandise, nor glasses, nor elevators.

It happens that I am tired of my feet and my nails
and my hair and my shadow.
It happens that I am tired of being a man.

Just the same it would be delicious
to scare a notary with a cut lily
or knock a nun stone dead with one blow of an ear.
It would be beautiful
to go through the streets with a green knife
shouting until I died of cold.

I do not want to go on being a root in the dark,
hesitating, stretched out, shivering with dreams,
downwards, in the wet tripe of the earth,
soaking it up and thinking, eating every day.

I do not want to be the inheritor of so many misfortunes.
I do not want to continue as a root and as a tomb,
as a solitary tunnel, as a cellar full of corpses,
stiff with cold, dying with pain.

For this reason Monday burns like oil
at the sight of me arriving with my jail-face,
and it howls in passing like a wounded wheel,
and its footsteps towards nightfall are filled with hot blood.

And it shoves me along to certain corners, to certain damp houses,
to hospitals where the bones come out of the windows,
to certain cobbler's shops smelling of vinegar,
to streets horrendous as crevices.

There are birds the colour of sulphur, and horrible intestines
hanging from the doors of the houses which I hate,
there are forgotten sets of teeth in a coffee-pot,
there are mirrors
which should have wept with shame and horror,
there are umbrellas all over the place, and poisons, and navels.

I stride along with calm, with eyes, with shoes,
with fury, with forgetfulness,
I pass, I cross offices and stores full of orthopedic appliances,
and courtyards hung with clothes on wires,
underpants, towels and shirts which weep
slow dirt tears.

The largest bird can’t fly

The ostrich, at more than eight feet tall and 350 pounds, is the tallest and heaviest bird, but it does not fly. It can run at about 35 miles per hour. The wild turkey runs 30 miles per hour, the California roadrunner runs 26 miles per hour, and the common pheasant has been clocked at 21 miles per hour.

Dinosaurs ruled for about 140 million years

Dinosaurs lived between 250 and 65 million years ago. For most of that time, they dominated Earth. Then, almost overnight, they disappeared. Some scientists believe that the Earth's climate may have drastically changed and dinosaurs couldn't find enough to eat.