Deprivation issues?

My gf hates my ex-wife so much because she saw what my ex-wife did to me hahaha! My body's filled with remembrances from her, the tiny pinches became scarrs, and the cuts I got turned into keloids (she throws kitchen knives at me before when I go home past 8PM no matter what the reason is, may it be traffic, overtime etc.)

The worst part, I'm earning so much and yet she's only giving me P100 everyday for transport fare, breakfast, lunch and merienda...Sad thing I can't make kupit of my salary so that I could eat better...She doesn't even provide me with a car and so I have to take bus and then jeepney in going to work and vice versa because she fears I might use the car for porma on other girls, lame reason yet I was too stupid to just accept it.
I weigh 180lbs before she started depriving me, in the span of 2 years, I became 105lbs. Too underweight for a person like me who stands 5'7.

With P100/day, I can only afford eating instant noodles for lunch and pandesal for breakfast and merienda. Bus fare costs P18 from Ortigas to Lawton, then I would take a jeep from Lawton to Divisoria which costs P7.50. In a day, my transport fee alone already costs P51. Only P49 left for my entire day. With P49, I buy 5pcs pandesal for breakfast which costs P5, I bring my own coffee which I put in a stainless jug. P44 left. I buy Pancit Canton for lunch, 2 packs to fill my stomach, each pack costs P5, so 2 is P10. I have a little kitchen in the office so I just need to cook it there. P34 left. I buy something heavy for merienda, like pandesal with cheese since I'm not really sure if I can still eat when I get home (I'll tell you why later), I eat about 3 pcs of pandesal with cheese, 3pcs for P10... P24 left...That's my savings everyday, though I cannot really call it savings since I use it to buy my needs...I only get to save P120 in a week... good enough for grocery stuffs...and a good toothbrush would already costs my entire savings for the week...

I'm not dreaming of buying a cellphone anymore, I was using a Sendo back then, I don't know if people are familiar with that...It's like only I have that kind of phone...
It's still with me, though the charger's already broken, the unit is still good...

I leave work around 6PM in fear that traffic would take me hours and my wife would throw knives at me when I get home later than 8PM. Luckily, I usually arrive home no later than 7:30PM. However, sad thing is, my dinner would most of the time be my wife's nag & shout. I would be lucky if I get to have dinner twice a month...even if the viand would be corned beef and pork and beans, I really appreciate it, coz that's what my wife can afford to cook...or rather to microwave lolz Ü

I play with my child when I get home, even when I feel so weak due to hunger that I can feel myself shaking when I throw my child in the air...
After that, I take a shower and go to sleep at 9PM.

I wake up at 4:30AM, leaving home by 5AM. By 6AM I'm already working and waiting for other workers to arrive...everyday is just a plain routine for me...and it went on for half year or so...until I met someone who changed my life...