Tired and wasted, but atleast HAPPY AND CONTENTED

I'm just too tired to type on what's been happening to me lately. All that I can say is that I love my life right now and I'm living it to the fullest!
A lot of things had just happened and I know there will still be a lot of it to happen in the future, but who cares, as long as GOD stands beside me, I am not afraid to face it...
GOD has been answering all of my prayers now, I LOVE HIM! THANKS GOD!

It's been a month

It's been a month since Kris passed away, I miss her more each day.
I know you're just there, guiding us all the way.
I'll never forget the moments we shared,
And how you showed your love and care.
I love you Kris, I hope you can see
I regret to tell you how much you mean to me
Now that you're gone,
We could only say how much you mean to us
...through prayers...

Pretty Woman

I know this movie had been shown for several years already. but, it's funny how I just got to watch it today. At first I thought the movie was boring and everything, but I was wrong! This movie touched me and made me want to fall in love hahaha! So romantic, I kept on thinking about it, good thing I watched it before going to sleep, made my sleep to be a very nice one...

It's been 3 weeks...

It's been 3 weeks since Kris passed away, and I miss her with each passing day. Last night, I had a dinner meeting with some friends, and we talked about her in the middle of nowhere; we just miss her thoroughly, telling how much we miss her and wanted her to be there last night.
True enough, it was never happier without Kris' presence. Last night was a test to that. There were no humorous jokes last night, no one was there to crack a joke or made us laugh so hard, coz we all know that only Kris can do that. However, we left a chair vacant, just in case Kris would like to join us; she will always be welcome to join us, forever.
I miss you Kris, we all do. GOD took you away too quick, that's the truth.

I miss you...

YES, the truth that you're gone have sinked in. AND YES, I CRIED TOO MUCH KNOWING THE FACT THAT YOU'RE GONE AND WE'LL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN.
But NO, the truth that you're gone have sinked in only for quite awhile because no words can tell how much pain I feel with just the thought of knowing that you're already gone

Just as what others say, it's like I'm living in denial each day. I keep on denying to myself that you're already gone because that's my only relief; I'm still hurting. I guess no one can blame me if I'm feeling this way, we've been the closest for the past years, and we've treated each other more than best friends.

I don't want to be so emotional that's why I keep on pushing the reality away, I hate to cry because it's hard for me to let go of you, in fact I don't want to let go of you; I will, but not now, it's just too soon.

Up to now I'm still hoping for your texts and calls. Everyday, I keep on checking my phone from time to time, hoping and wishing that I'll get a message or call from you. But no, there have been nothing since you've been gone, and this only proves that this is the reality...

I hope this is just a bad dream...

Hawak Kamay...

HAWAK KAMAY by Yeng Constantino
This song never meant a lot to me, not until you're gone.
Before, whenever I hear this song, it's whether I stick to the radio station because I can't change it or else I really change the radio station because this song is just too emo for me. I'm not attracted to these types of songs, in short.

But now, whenever I would hear this song, our memories pile up my mind and I can't help but cry. I remember during your last day of burial, this was the song that was played by the band, I just can't help but to excuse myself to the toilet and cry in there.

I WASN'T THERE WHEN YOU NEED ME THE MOST. AS A RESULT, IT COST YOUR LIFE. I DIDN'T MEAN IT, I'M SO SORRY... I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS COMING TOO SOON. IF ONLY I KNOW, I WOULD RUSH MYSELF JUST TO SAVE YOU EVEN IF IT HAPPENED AT DAWN AND WE LIVE SO FAR AWAY.

I miss you terribly, though I know you're happy watching over us already. I just miss you that's why I cry to sleep every night. My day was never complete since you've been gone, I need to take valium every night and cry myself to sleep. I'm not having a good rest since you've been gone, my mind is full of questions and doubts and I don't have anyone to turn to, because I only turn to you. BUT YOU'RE GONE.

HOW DID YOU KNOW

HOW DID YOU KNOW ...
I've forgotten who is the original singer of this song, but I know Gary V. and Aiza Seguerra has revived version of this.
This song used to be a favorite song of mine, but as time passes, we get to know new songs that became our current favorites, and then it hit me.

This song will forever linger in my heart. This song lets me realize that I'm in the reality, and that the reality that you're gone has sinked in on me, for awhile only though.
I cried too much that all the people looked at me on the day of your burial. I remember this was the song being played when your casket was being carried out of the paz, I'll never forget those moments, I'm not an emotional person, and I keep my emotions to myself as far as I can, though I admit, I'm very sensitive, I get hurt easily and I have a weak personality. But it doesn't mean that I'm going to cry easily, I'm not a cry baby, I don't cry over small things, I fight and prove that I can prove something instead of crying. But this was a different situation.

The reason why I cried out of nowhere was because of this song. This song let me into the reality, and it hit me, the reality that you're gone had sinked in, and tears filled my eyes, and I couldn't help but to cry. But it stopped after I fooled myself that it's just a bad dream.

I don't know how to accept the fact that you're gone, I only know how to avoid thinking that you're gone, and that's denying the reality.

Egay

We're having a 6-day break for schools since super typhoon Egay is passing through.
Good thing as I can have a pretty good rest after weeks of stressing myself and working so hard and feeling so tired at the end of the day but yet find it very hard to sleep at night.

I don't know what's the matter with me, I feel weird these past few days. I hope these are not signs that I'm getting old hehehe...

BL-5C BATTERIES

I own a Nokia 1100, and I tried to check it's battery and just as unexpected, saw that the battery is BL-5C. I saw in the news that these types of batteries can explode when charging, and so Nokia is giving a free replacement for these batteries. I tried my luck by logging in to www.nokia.com, and it really works, I guess Nokia is really serious about this, well, I do hope so... it's been almost 2 weeks since I've sent my contact information to Nokia and they said they're going to send a new battery for replacement of my BL-5C battery but still up to now I still haven't received anything...
I THINK THEY'RE JUST WARNING PEOPLE FROM USING THESE TYPES OF BATTERIES, FREE REPLACEMENT OF BATTERIES IS JUST A FRAUD!

A year ago...

A year ago today, TIFFY left us unexpectedly just like what my bestie did...
2 of the most important people in my life was taken by GOD within a year.
Tiffy left us with pain in our hearts, she was such a fighter, everybody hoped for her quick recovery, and she did. However, only Lord can decide for a person's stay here on Earth. Perhaps my little TIFFY was too precious to stay here on Earth...
Bestie, wherever you are right now, I know you're happy and playing with my Tiffy. Please take good care of my little bunsoy okay? And Tiffy, Bestie should have been your Godmother... =)

I guess it will take time for me to heal all these wounds, no regrets though, I know that you two are both in God's hands already =)

P.S. Tiffy, I have already moved on, I'm not in grief anymore. I don't cry everytime I remember you. You are an inspiration for me and everybody else who cared about you that sometime in our lives, an Angel touched us and made us feel that life is beautiful and worth living for.

GOOD INCOME

It's sad how La Salle lose over Ateneo last Thursday. Araneta was so filled and people was so tensed; the game was such a good one. Before they had overtime, La Salle was leading, but after the overtime, I don't know what the heck happened and Ateneo gained 3 points over La Salle, so sad...

More update about UAAP:
Tickets that are priced at P50 (upper box A) in the ticket was sold by people selling outside Araneta for P300-P700 bucks. That's about 500%-1300% increase in terms of profit, wow! And take note, people are still willing to buy them considering it's overpriced and they know that the original price just to be able to watch the game live.

To my beloved friend that will forever linger in my heart

Today, my best friend passed away... I just dunno what to say, I was in denial, I find it hard to believe that she's gone... In a glimpse, she's taken by the LORD. How can she not say goodbye to those who love her? She left us right away, very unexpected. Sudden death which caused all of who love her to be in denial that she's already gone...

A friend just informed me about it. At first I thought it was a rumor, but how could a good person be rumored just like that? And so I called our friends to confirm it, and yes, it was true, she was gone... Still, I was in denial, I opened the computer and searched the net hoping that there would be no news about her. To my dismay, her name appeared a lot of times in google confirming she has passed away. Still in denial, I bought 3 newspapers, and I saw her name on all of those. But I was still in denial...

Such a wonderful and good friend, that's all that I can say. She's different from the rest, never ceases to make me laugh. She's smart and reliable, too bad other people who don't know her won't have the chance to know her anymore.

I can't go to your wake, just the thought that I will never see you again makes me feel sad. How can God take away such a good person at such a young age?

I know you yourself weren't expecting this to happen to you right away. You still have a lot of dreams, and I know we both have the same dream for next year. Sad to say, you will be accomplishing your dreams in Heaven.

If I had known that this would be happening to you, perhaps I will try my very best to save you from death. But as they say, only GOD can take and retain our lives.

It was too late for me to say just how important you are to me. Our jeepney rides to Rizal are never as fun without you there. We all love you, even though you never heard that, it was given.

Losing a friend as wonderful as you is so depressing. People around you are in grief right now. You're young, full of dreams, who would have thought you'd be gone right away...

All that we can do now is to move on and accept the fact that you're gone. We know you're in a better place now. There will never be another person that's as wonderful as you.

As you lie quietly in your casket, all we could do is hope and pray that GOD will always take good care of you, and that you'll be safe and happy wherever you are now.

Til we meet again someday, in a better place, at the right time...I LOVE YOU, you are one of the most wonderful person I have met... You're not just beautiful physically, but you are more beautiful on the inside.

Expecting Father

Just when I thought my day was about to end as a normal one, I received a text message saying 'I'm pregnant!', I was overwhelmed and so happy, words couldn't express just how happy I am... I guess it's true that when a window closes, the door opens. I can't wait for the baby to arrive! I've been waiting for this for the longest time, my baby boy at last!
The baby is due by the end of March next year, I'm so excited, I'm starting to think for his name already =)

Single?Why?

A lot of people have been asking me about why I am still single up to this age... I just smile back at them, making them think that I am gay or whatever

Honestly speaking, I am very choosy when it comes to people, even make friends... I don't have a lot of friends, so you're lucky if you are my friend. Mind you, if you think you are my friend, as me first if I consider you as my friend, coz a lot of people usually consider me as their friend, but I don't consider them as one, coz they are users, telling people that you are their friend just because you are powerful or influential...

What are some of my qualifications in looking for a lifetime partner?
Here are some:
1. Atleast college graduate
2. Stable job
3. Good manners
4. TAKES ME FOR WHO I AM is a must. I've been cheated quite a lot of times because of this
5. Physically, as long as she's not ugly, it's fine. Don't really care for the looks
6. VERY HARDWORKING AND NEVER GIVES UP, major turn off for me are people who easily gives up. I don't like uncompetitive people, they are not fit enough to exist in this world!
7. HARD WORKING HARD WORKING HARD WORKING!
8. MAABILIDAD! BEST TURN ON FOR ME, I dunno why... I just love people that are 'MAABILIDAD'

I can't think of any anymore...that's all for now...

the simpsons

I went to watch THE SIMPSONS at MOA today, I LOVE IT! They're my favorite! Oh yeah!
I'm so stressed and tired...
minamalas ako nitong mga nakalipas na araw. Nasira kahapon yung isang laptop ko, the one I use for school. Today, my I-phone got stolen... I feel like crying...
Not in the mood... Need a good sleep

Lose or win?

It's amazing how UE won over La Salle last Sunday. From the start, the game have been so intensified. Nonetheless, Cuneta Astrodome never looked that crowded before.
What's amazing is the performance of UE, they ended the game with the score 96-76, a total of 20 points in difference.
The last time UE won over La Salle was on July 17, 2005 with a score of 57-56. The score difference wasn't far, it was only by a point. But now, look what UE had made, such a very big difference.
I don't want to think that La Salle have given up their talents in basketball. As we all know, they are one of the strongest team in UAAP, maybe UE was just too strong that LaSallites didn't expect them to be that strong.

Whether win or lose, it's just a game...

SONA Morning...

Today is the president's SONA, I'm still sleepy, what the heck am I doing, waking up at 7 in the morning just to update my blog... and watch simpsons hahaha! Abnormality strikes again =)

Excited to graduate

I'm graduating, finally! After almost 7 years of struggling over my 5-year course haha! My time of graduation? Earliest would be by October next year, that would be 14 months from now... Can't wait for that day to arrive....
I should have been graduating this year, if I have not shifted from one course to another, course-hopping as they term it. I was indecisive with what I really want to take... But the bottomline is, I just want to graduate with whatever the course may be... =)

Some Realizations...

Today, I came to a point of thinking about what I really like. Of course, aside from what I'm currently doing, I am still thinking of other things that I wanna do in the future... Here are some things that I've thought of:
1. Settling down after finishing my studies, but not right away. My qualifications? Too many to mention, but atleast she should have the same interests as me...
2. Tour around the world next year (perhaps next year around the month of October, the time of my earliest graduation), that would be my present for myself for a job well done hahaha!
3. Getting a job is far from my mind since I already have a steady income...
4. Continue studying, wow, I can't believe I'm really thinking about it...

personal vs magazine

Today, I went to school to meet with a friend... I saw Simon Atkins, he seated beside me while having breakfast. Knowing that there was game yesterday (DLSU vs FEU), I dared myself to ask him who won the game. He pointed down, meaning DLSU won, I asked by how many points, and he raised his 3 fingers.
Yesterday, I was reading this CHALK magazine that I borrowed from a friend, the July issue was an UAAP special, so one would see the UAAP players inside the cover. On the cover was Simon Atkins and an Atenean rookie, pardon me for forgetting his name.
Simon Atkins was very handsome in that magazine, I must say. But today, as I saw him this morning, all that I can say is the he is photogenic hahaha! I swear...